What a question.
It has changed my outlook, particularly because of the field I’m in. It just blows my mind that we all can’t get along. In the greater “world peace” sense. Like, we all have people fighting for countries and stuff but…WHY? We’re all gonna die. What is the POINT? I know it’s not that simple but still. We as people spend so much time, money and energy getting other people and protecting ourselves from people trying to get us. It’s a twisted situation. It makes me think a ton about that and what i was thinking when i chose to be a part of it. I don’t think my general interests Air Force wise have changed. I don’t necessarily take full advantage of Air Force opportunities or volunteer or do anything extra. I go to work and go home. I really do need to pick up some hobbies or something though. At the moment I’m stuck trying to figure out what it is I’m going to do when I’m done. I just don’t know. I’m interested in things but am i interested enough to make a career out of it? Who knows?
I’m not too sure if i accurately answered the question, but ask more if you want!
the other day I mentioned that Blue is the Warmest Color is my favorite movie, and yes, as Chescaleigh commented, there is an abundance of pretty graphic lesbian sex scenes. It’s almost to the point where you think it may be a good time to refill your popcorn. So yeah, just beware if that’s not yo thang.
I don’t know how to reply to comments on a post as a post. Is that a thing? I’m new here.
remember when i used to blog? me too.
remember when i used to make videos? me too.
now that thats out of the way i figured i’d drop in. i’m on tumblr all the time, i scroll and scroll but i don’t really post anything.
no reason why really. but for those who actually care i’ll update you on my wonderful world.
i’m still in the military. almost halfway done!! praise gawd. i can’t wait to get out and no, i have no idea what i’m going to do when i get out, i just hope it’s great. and it’ll involve dreads and piercings and tattoos and glorious shades of “prohibited” nail polish.
i don’t like my job and have no desire to do advance training or anything of the sort in the civilian world once i get out BUT it’s easy so i can’t really complain.
i have a son. his name is Dexter. he’s a 7 month old beagle pup that just got his balls chopped off. he currently lives with me since his daddy moved back to NC for work (super sad face), but we have joint custody over him so we switch off.
i live alone and i don’t have friends here and i’m not sure what to do about that. i wish things were as easy as going to the bookstore and finding someone to hang out with that’s perfect for me, but that’s kind of terrifying so..yeah.
i see a psychologist every 2 weeks or so. it’s great. she’s great. i’m learning about myself. my mindset. my behaviors. it helps. and i get out of work for it so *thumbs up*
my birthday is next week.
i have a dentist appointment in the morning. i’m lowkey terrified but i’m telling myself it’ll be a breeze. it’s just a filling but who wants that? ugh.
i spend ungodly amounts on food. fast food. fresh produce. all of it. i don’t know how or why. i think about food way too much.
i’ve gained 25 pounds since i went to basic training almost 2 years ago. i want to lose some weight but i hate working out and i love eating terrible food. see my issue?
hmm i think that about covers it. ask me questions? i’ll answer.
I never knew what my favorite movie was. I just saw it. Blue is the Warmest Color. It’s on Netflix. It’s in French. It’s also 3 hours long. But it’s so raw and honest and full of emotion and boobies. I really REALLY enjoyed it.
i have been wanting to record a video talking about the positive/benefits that have come from me joining the military but every time i turn the camera on i’m just like “ew” or “nah not today” this has been like a 2-3 month ordeal really…